I'm listening to the piano man by Billy Joel on the radio and thinking about how music has helped me connect what goes on in my world both internally an externally also goes on for others. 'sharing a drink called loneliness is better than drinking alone' Lines like this help me and remind me whilst we all have our own experience of whatever it is we are going through others at some point have had similar feelings. I wonder if this is so important to me as in my family of origin feelings of others where not a high priority. Maybe that is too harsh, as I don't suppose any consideration or discussion took place,
'yes darling I understand you are experiencing these inconvenient emotions, they are feelings, as a family we have decided to mainly ignore them.'
I wonder if that led me to the path I have taken, to work with, study and try and understand feelings, my feelings, others feelings, how feelings link to behaviour and our thoughts. A contrast to my original understanding and consideration of the importance of the feelings.
Change can bring up such a wide range of emotions and we may have preconceived beliefs and values about how we will respond to change. I have noticed that my own response is wanting to know what change will bring. What will this changed future look like? What will it feel like? What will be different? What will be the same? I can only imagine with the information that I have available now what the future will bring, if I am too rigid will that influence the path of change? The bit I like to miss out is how am I going to get there! Maybe not so much how but what is it going to feel like when I am there and getting there? Perhaps this is related to the old family belief that feelings are to be ignored where possible.